Saamir Gupta

Confused

Confused

Bemused

To the pinnacle of insanity

Driven in hope of clarity

A propos my life’s ideology

don’t know what I endeavour for

Is it too much of me in it

Or is it you who reigns perfectly

Is I truly the reason i am striving for

Or is it the antagonism between you and me

Day after day and night after night

I tussle with and for my own self contemptuous

My contentment when I behold

I tend to be dextrously virtuous

I look at you, you don’t look at me

My selfishness makes me precarious

Was it too much of me in it?

I try and try and try till the end

You win at the finish with routes and bends

I don’t approve and won’t ever try

Still feel murky and despondent i lie

You look at me, I don’t look at you

Cursing myself all the way through

So is it you who reigns perfectly?

The end had to be me

For it had begun from here

You came and spoiled

For all what I had pondered

Was it fair to go where I won’t

Egalitarianism is gone don’t

You take it as your victory and my defeat

But still you have the applause and that’s unjust

I cry for the acclaim and thrust

Is I the reason i am striving for

Or is it the antagonism between you and me

Unable to decide where to draw a line

I take refuge of pain and melancholy i roar

I am not afraid to walk on your lines but

Unethical for me are the paths you drove

Can I follow something I don’t believe in

Still dejected I am forced to seize those

You rise by falling or fall by rising

That concerns me not at all

But i fall if i don’t and even if i do

Take your course, the plunge is for sure to befall

I want to ascend, to mount to glory

But only available option is falling

The eyes are yours, you have my whip

And i have nothing, no sense no grip

For hunger of triumph is what gets mounted

I am no humanitarian but want to be one

The competition does not let the both accounted

Is this the cause of frustration?

Why is it that happiness is lost

When i see you where i belong?

Why am I not able to judge

What I do to my own convention?

Confused..

Saamir Gupta